Well time does fly! This time 4 months ago I was coming around from my operation, and was in a rough state on the ward unaware of the fun and games that were to follow. Since then I have come a long way; I have completed my recovery and I am now back at work.
The incision has healed completely now. There is still a substantial scar down my stomach and it is still very noticeable – I might get a picture at some point soon. My view on it is still the same: I am not at all embarrassed about it, nor do I wish that it wasn’t there. I actually kind of like it; its part of me now. It’s a reminder of a life changing event, and I hope that when I get tough times in the future it can help me to put things into perspective.
I have learnt a lot through this process, a lot about myself, about life, and about Crohn’s. I have come a long way as a person in this journey, I’ve met some amazing and inspirational people. I have also been inspired to learn more about other peoples experiences, and to look more into the support side of things; how I can use my experience to help reassure other people. After all that was the whole idea of this blog: to share how I have found this experience with people who find themselves in the situation I was in last October. I have been talking to people on some of the support groups on Facebook, and I get a lot of satisfaction from talking to people.
People have been very kind in what they have said about me since recovering. A lot of people have told me that I am looking very well these days, and that they are impressed with how far and how fast I have come along with my recovery. This comes from friends who have Crohn’s as well as those without. One way or another its positive to hear that I am looking as great from the outside as I feel on the inside.
The money side of things has been hard. I wouldn’t normally want to raise this subject, but over the last few weeks it has become more of an issue. I mentioned in a previous post about the letter I have had from the benefits people, claiming I have been overpaid and demanding that I re-pay them. This has developed: I have written to the income lot, telling them that I started work when I stated and not before hand, which they seem to have been under the impression of. I am waiting for them to reply. As well as that I have been told from the housing benefits people that they have paid me too much as well according to their system, adding another few hundred to what I am being charged. I will contact to them and try to explain the situation, but I have a sinking feeling that this will be in vain. I haven’t done the maths yet, but it will be interesting to see how little I actually had from them once you take off what they are demanding I repay.
One final thing to share: I now have a couple of t-shirts printed up with the purple Crohn’s ribbon and the name of my blog across the back. I’ve worn this out and about and have had a few people asking what its about. Its proving to be a brilliant conversation starter, and a great way of helping me to raise awareness. One of my hobbies is playing in a covers band called Stick of Rock; we had a gig last Saturday night at which I wore one of these t-shirts. I had a fair few people asking me about it which was awesome.
On a similar note I am looking into getting some of the rubber charity wrist bands printed up with my address on them. Once I have done this I intend to sell them, and donate the profit to Crohn’s and Colitis UK. If anyone is reading this and would be interested in buying one of these when I have them then please let me know on here, so I have some idea on if this is a good idea or not.
Thanks again for reading people, its great to have your support with this blog.